One day you get to meet your fear

And one day the moment comes when you have to meet your fear face to face.
So shall we pretend we are brave and fearless? Coz no matter how long you avoid something ...
I am still not sure how I ended up in this situation and it really pisses me off that it's something I couldn't avoid (stepping back will mean giving up or even showing my fear) neither control.
Oh well but I already lost my points due to my boyfriends stupidity. He already has revealed to her that I am jealous. How better can it get?
After all you can't force one to do anything. And this situation proves that the more you share, even with your sweetheart, the more closer the opportunity to get fisted comes.
So what's the conclusion? Be silent as a mouse and reveal as less as possible? This will make you mysterious and raise his interest? I should keep notes for the future coz u never know...
Anyhow I was looking forward to a calm and relaxed long weekend but now since she will be there I can say good bye to the idea of enjoying my time there.
Am a little worried about my behavior coz I was never in a situating like this but as people say there is a first time to everything. I just hope my face won't get fucked up by the nail polish remover.Blah.
I am confused :(